ON SPIRITUALITY : WHY I STOPPED READING MY HOROSCOPE FOR 6 MONTHS

Self awareness is the main focus within my personal spiritual health. Paying close attention to my thoughts, energy and habits keep me close to myself. I analyze how I’m expressing myself and how certain people and situations make me feel. I bookmark my reactions while living life. Through journaling, meditating and focusing inward I have a good grip on my emotions and overall mood. This is an accomplishment that came with heartache and self acceptance.

I have always been intrigued by horoscopes, zodiac, crystals and the stars in general. It is in my nature to connect to symbolism and meaning. I find comfort (spiritually), in thinking that my steps are already ordered and I have to just let go and let be. My spiritual journey initially started out with the physical aspect. In college, practicing yoga was a big thing for me. Connecting to the breath, and feeling my muscles strengthen gave me a high. It wasn’t until I graduated and taught yoga, that I started to focus more on what I actually “believe” in. At this moment in my life, I am still searching for a more definitive belief. What I follow in my day to day is, do good and good will come to you.

Currently I am still fascinated by zodiac and horoscopes. I have become less interested in collecting stones, and physical trinkets. Right now, I use Palo Santo a few times a week to cleanse my home or refresh my family and I’s energy. I also still study the stars and spiritual practices. I can sometimes predict someones zodiac sign by being around them, and I do think astrology and daily life intertwine. I am still very apprehensive about tarot and readings and I think thats okay, to each its own. Spiritual practice is supposed to feel comforting and uplifting.

Mid last year, I realized that I was consumed by my daily horoscopes/projections. I began to feel discouraged if I read something that didn’t align with my plans. The “mercury retrograde” began to be decaying and a little claustrophobic. During certain moon phases and times of the year it isn’t best to start new projects or travel. These concepts limited my creative surge, so I stopped reading it all for six months. I deleted my app that gave me daily insight on what a Pisces is to expect. I muted my favorite Insta-witches posts. I disregarded conversations about the mercury retrograde and what sign the moon was in at the time.Knowing when to pull back and rest gave me peace.

Now, I can read about the moon without letting it overwhelm me. Taking space from the subject allowed me to healthily ingest this information. Now, I can read it and understand that it does not have to change how I move. I don’t have to be fearful of obstacles or misfortunes because they are simply a part of life.

My spiritual journey still continues, as I learn new things each day. I hope that I encourage someone who has been through something similar to pace yourself with all the information presented to us in this day and age. Everything in moderation. I can enjoy the mystery of life without worrying and I hope you can too. This information should be a light guide and not a stressor.