New York 2021 Nail Ramble

The day before I was to leave for New York, one of my nails broke. I had the perfect set, and loved the color. I had only had this set for about 4 days. I went to the nail shop to have it fixed, and it was good as new. The next morning as I was gathering my things, to soon be headed to the airport. I realized ANOTHER one of my nails was broken. The old me would have sulked, would have been so aggravated. But instead, I grabbed my nail file and chunked it in my carry on. I thought to myself, “Nice try, but I won’t come off my high seat for a nail.” I spent the time in the air - filing all of my nails down to an even length. They looked good. I smiled to myself pretty proud of my maturity and growth. Even with something so small, to move forward without feeling defeated is growth for me.

The perfectionist in the OLD me wants everything to go a certain way. If one little thing got out of place, I would spiral into this frenzy of low vibrational and negative emotions. But I chose not to come off my “high seat.” My high seat is the throne that I mentally imagine in my head. When negative feelings or a decision needs to be made - I do whatever allows me to stay in my high seat. The me who is in my high seat does not get upset by minute things that ultimately do not matter. The me who is in my high seat laughs deeply at inconvenient mishaps that try to ruin my time. The me who is in my high seat is so grateful for life - that it would take something tragic to gain control over my day.

Being a mother, I am very used to having someone by my side all of the time. Someone to eat with, talk with and to take care of. When I am alone for long periods of time, I sort of have to redefine my existence. This trip to New York allowed me to identify myself as an individual. To eat what I wanted and to do what I wanted to do. Having the time to process my thoughts and emotions without considering anyone else was quite restful. Taking that time allowed me to use some of the tools I practice with during shadow work. I am very grateful for the time, and space to have these experiences. My trip was beautiful despite the ‘nail test’ sent by the universe. Here are a couple shots from my trip that I don’t want to forget.