'Life Update' feat. ARQ

Life right now is really interesting for me. The theme seems to be practicing what I preach. That’s the hard thing about being a writer - doing what you suggest to others. Once you know better, you have to do better. That’s where I am, and it is deep work.

Creatively things are flowing and I’m more committed than ever to complete projects. ‘Ode to 20s’ really birthed a part of myself that sees all the possibilities of life. Putting my work out there in a new way gave me the openness I needed to produce more. Seeing how much others believe in me, and use my words to make it through hard times is more than enough motivation.

Motherhood has been rough as the “mom guilt” gets realer as Phoenix gets older. The more he comes into his own understanding of things, the more responsibility I have to come through for him. He can voice his needs (and wants of course). He constantly needs to be kept busy and truly has a mind of his own. It’s a celebration everytime I hear him use a new phrase. Yesterday, he tried Jello for the first time and loved it. This mother work is just as rewarding as it is tiring. What saves me everytime is that loving him comes so natural. We spent all last year sleep training him, just for me to now prefer him in the bed with me at night. Finding ways to keep him entertained during a pandemic is hard. These days, running errands with me is as fun as it gets. I try to make life as exciting for him as I can. I wonder what he thinks of me as his mother and I can’t wait until the day he can tell me.

Something I’ve been prioritizing is my style ! In the last couple months, I’ve been treating myself to new pieces and accessories. I’ve come to realize how much looking good effects my mood. I’m learning how my style and energy intertwine. Along with refining my own style, I’ve also been splurging a bit on toddler clothes too. I feel much better when Phoenix and I are pulled together and on top of our self care/body positivity game.

Something new thats happened is we purchased a TV. I have been without a TV for over 5 years. I felt that it was unnecessary for so long. I sort of started to see tv as the ‘idiot box’. The way it used to keep me stuck for hours on end, seeing the same irrelevant information over and over. Since Phoenix is getting older and always watching his ipad, I decided to just get one and see how it goes. It’s nice to have, especially when I need to get things done. I love being able to work on my computer, but watch my Youtube videos on the tv. Watching some of my favorite vloggers on a bigger screen makes the experience richer ! At the moment, my favorite Youtubers are Gemary, Sophia Chang, Nash Grier and Jaelah Majette. I do watch a lot of Youtube, so my preferences change by the month and the mood.

The day these pictures were taken (last Sunday), Phoenix and I were just hanging out at home. Both of us are wearing lounge sets by ARQ. Everything we have on can be purchased on their website. I can honestly say, I won’t be lounging in anything else as long as ARQ exists. What have you guys been up to lately ?