OCTOBER, THERAPY & CLIMBING OUT OF THE HOLE

Eleven days into the month, and things are looking alright. The fact that there are only two and a half months left of this year is getting more and more real to me. Right now, I am just focusing on making the best of them and planning exciting things along the way. 2019 is the best year I’ve had in a long time, but things have taken a dip since late August. There’s been a series of things that have happened outside of my control. This whole year has been about self care, understanding my anxiety, and overcoming hardships. Now, its like the universe is checking to see if I’m really about that life. Im being tested to see if I can stay at a peaceful place despite lifes’ curveballs. The old me would resort to isolation. I would take a long Instagram break, and distance myself from those around me. This space is much different, and I am acknowledging that I actually need those around me during hard times.

Last weekend my best-friend came into town. We ate, drank, laughed and did all the normal things you do with your best-friend. Troy and I got a babysitter, and we all went out for the first time in months ! When she left, I felt uplifted and grateful. Living in a separate state from my loved ones is hard, so when they come see me the time is cherished. The familiarity and quality time brings me back to myself in such a beautiful way.

This weekend my grandparents are visiting, which should also be really nice. Its that season, where you get to see all the people you love, and the visiting begins. I really do love this time of year for that reason alone. In the meantime, I’ve been really focused on freelance writing, brainstorming for Phoenixs’ halloween costume and making sure I prioritize working out and eating as clean as possible.

I also saw a therapist for the first time yesterday. The experience was pleasant and much like I thought it would be. I think everyone deserves to go to therapy and its a shame everyone doesn’t have access. I am happy that I’m naturally taking a completely different route to cater to my mental health than usual. Changed actions result in a changed life. I’ll speak more on therapy after I go to 5 or so sessions, so that I can give a true perspective.

I hope you guys are doing well and making memories with those you love. Above are some bestie pics taken last weekend at the museum.